Wednesday, June 02, 2010

A conversation...

Have you ever had one of "those kind" of conversations? The ones that begin with benign bantering? A cacophony of commonality? The drone of daily life? ??

I had such a one several weeks ago!! Are you wondering? Querying? As to why this merits a myriad of thought? A post? A blog?

The reason: a string of sound. Words. A sentence! A declaration!

A sentence that remains as if on loop. Playing again. And again. And AGAIN.

Let me take you back to "that day" !

I was chatting with a friend. Congratulating her on her soon to be "NEW" member of their family. You see this friend has THREE bio children and THREE that are a gift of adoption from Ethiopia. (they have been home just a smidgen less/more than a year from Ethiopia) And oh my mercy if they don't receive a call from.... CHINA. Long story short... they will be adding another daughter to their family...SOON! Wow! Again... congrats sweet friend!!!

As I was THEN talking about this fabulous, open, loving family with a dear neighbor (she too has adopted) From China & Ethiopia. Not thinking they would adopt again, YET, choosing to not say NO if God presents an opportunity ... I was in awe listening... intrigued by the selfLESSness! The accepting of God's will.

As we continued to visit she shared with me about a group of girls in China ALL waiting children... "Waiting" includes children that are, as the phrase says, WAITING on their forever family! OR perhaps they have what is considered a "Special Need" !! When I first heard this term several years ago it gave me pause. What was a "special need" How severe would it be? Is it curable? Could it be treated?

As my precious friend/neighbor expounded upon these little ones a world, an ocean away , I was moved by some of the SMALL NEED! One girl waiting needed... are you ready for this ??? She NEEDS.... Glasses!!!!! Seriously? Glasses?? That caught me so off guard! Glasses!! A small YET important item !!! You see... BOTH my girls.... Selah & Shaylee are "special needs" you know what their need is ?? Their EYES!!!! Strabismus.

I gasped and extolled " Why, I will buy her glasses!!!" ( inwardly thinking how very BIG of me!!! HORRORS!) My precious humble friend laid her hand on my knee and said

"But Bridget, She NEEDS a home" !!

WOE! Whoa!!!

Did you see that that?

Did you make the connection??


NEED!


She needs a home!!

I am ashamed to say that I mentally & emotionally "checked out" after that.

Several days passed. I was sharing with Mark about our friends & neighbors and about the "NEED" of that one little girl. Again, I said and drug Mark right along with me declaring " We WILL buy her glasses" ! He agreed! Then.... isn't there always a "then" ???


I continued on reiterating the entire conversation and all the details I could recall. When I arrived at the pivotal part of the " But, Bridget she NEEDS a home", he reacted EXACTLY as I did!!!

Subject closed!!!


Dead End !

Life continues on!


However, as moments became minutes , and minutes hours, and hours days... those words "But,Bridget she needs a home." Reverberated! Resounded! Resonated!!

Internal arguing ensued!

I prayed! Because ... are you ready for some ugly to show?? I didn't want to even consider adoption... AGAIN! Selfish! I know! True just the same.


I then turned to His Word. James 1:22... But prove yourselves DOERS of this world not merely hearers who delude themselves. skip down to vs 25 ..." an effectual DOER will be blessed by what he DOES." vs 27 ..." in the sight of our God, pure and undefiled religion... take care of the orphans & the widows in their distress

distress |dis╦łtres|
suffering caused by lack of money or the basic necessities of life : the poor were helped in their distress

Continue on to James chapter 2 ... vs 15~17 Suppose you see a brother or sister who needs food or clothing (perhaps even GLASSES & a home)and you say, "Well, good-bye and God bless you; stay warm and eat well"--but then you don't give that person any food or clothing. What good does that do?So you see, it isn't enough just to have faith. Faith that doesn't show itself by good deeds is no faith at all--it is dead and useless.


Pro 24:12Don't try to avoid responsibility by saying you didn't know about it. For God knows all hearts, and he sees you. He keeps watch over your soul, and he knows you knew! And he will judge all people according to what they have done.

Mark and I have texted and not yet spoken in person... I think we are both SCARED!!

I know I am !!! I also know THE I Am !! And He WILL give wisdom! Direction!

" She needs a Home"

"She needs a home"

"She needs a home."

4 comments:

Monique said...

Tears in my eyes...the needs are SO great!

May God direct you and Mark...
Hugs

Sharon Ankerich said...

And I know just the home!!! :) Praying for you and your husband! Blessings!
Sharon

Karen's Korner said...

What has been the outcome?
It is ironic what you have been sharing. I have a friend who has already adopted one Chinese girl and for some time (years) has been trying to adopt another one but the Chinese authorities have been putting up all sorts of obstacles. First it was because the Olympics were being hosted there - but the Olympics are over and still no sign of the 'sister' for the first child she adopted. It is heartbreaking and frustrating, especially when, as your post points out, the NEED is obviously still there!

BridgetdSmith said...

Karen! We are still... or I should I say "I" am still waiting on God AND waiting on my Husband! The Leader!

His heart wants to go forward The $$$$$ , he is in the financial "arena" , scare him !

I "thought" a child was "ours" ... listed as a SN (special needs) on CCAI's site! I will NOT be convinced that she was NOT!! We stalled! Waited!! Questioned!

Another family said YES!!

God's Will... will be done!!

We can "choose" to be a part of it... or others will and be blessed!


I DO think we "missed out" on an UNbelievable blessing! Do I think God will punish us for that ... no!!


We have adopted twice! From China !! BOTH SN !

I sort of thought of it as we HAD adopted! DONE!


The thing that was pointed out to me was " You are STILL rearing your China chicks" ... it s not a once done and done!

I have a heart and MUCH tendered heart to adoption ! And especially Chinese adoption !!

Hubby tells me I would keep on adopting forever!!

He just may be right!!

We are, as a couple,getting "OLDER" !! Yet, my heart longs to parent , an orphan, Chinese... Special needs!

God will have to do MIRACULOUS things for that to happen !! I have NO doubt He can !! NONE whatsoever !!!

I would ask you to support your friend! Pray for her ! For the path she is on the bring a child HOME!!

God will answer ! His timing WILL be impeccable !!!

I would like to "follow" your blog... how might I do that????

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