Wednesday, June 02, 2010

A conversation...

Have you ever had one of "those kind" of conversations? The ones that begin with benign bantering? A cacophony of commonality? The drone of daily life? ??

I had such a one several weeks ago!! Are you wondering? Querying? As to why this merits a myriad of thought? A post? A blog?

The reason: a string of sound. Words. A sentence! A declaration!

A sentence that remains as if on loop. Playing again. And again. And AGAIN.

Let me take you back to "that day" !

I was chatting with a friend. Congratulating her on her soon to be "NEW" member of their family. You see this friend has THREE bio children and THREE that are a gift of adoption from Ethiopia. (they have been home just a smidgen less/more than a year from Ethiopia) And oh my mercy if they don't receive a call from.... CHINA. Long story short... they will be adding another daughter to their family...SOON! Wow! Again... congrats sweet friend!!!

As I was THEN talking about this fabulous, open, loving family with a dear neighbor (she too has adopted) From China & Ethiopia. Not thinking they would adopt again, YET, choosing to not say NO if God presents an opportunity ... I was in awe listening... intrigued by the selfLESSness! The accepting of God's will.

As we continued to visit she shared with me about a group of girls in China ALL waiting children... "Waiting" includes children that are, as the phrase says, WAITING on their forever family! OR perhaps they have what is considered a "Special Need" !! When I first heard this term several years ago it gave me pause. What was a "special need" How severe would it be? Is it curable? Could it be treated?

As my precious friend/neighbor expounded upon these little ones a world, an ocean away , I was moved by some of the SMALL NEED! One girl waiting needed... are you ready for this ??? She NEEDS.... Glasses!!!!! Seriously? Glasses?? That caught me so off guard! Glasses!! A small YET important item !!! You see... BOTH my girls.... Selah & Shaylee are "special needs" you know what their need is ?? Their EYES!!!! Strabismus.

I gasped and extolled " Why, I will buy her glasses!!!" ( inwardly thinking how very BIG of me!!! HORRORS!) My precious humble friend laid her hand on my knee and said

"But Bridget, She NEEDS a home" !!

WOE! Whoa!!!

Did you see that that?

Did you make the connection??


NEED!


She needs a home!!

I am ashamed to say that I mentally & emotionally "checked out" after that.

Several days passed. I was sharing with Mark about our friends & neighbors and about the "NEED" of that one little girl. Again, I said and drug Mark right along with me declaring " We WILL buy her glasses" ! He agreed! Then.... isn't there always a "then" ???


I continued on reiterating the entire conversation and all the details I could recall. When I arrived at the pivotal part of the " But, Bridget she NEEDS a home", he reacted EXACTLY as I did!!!

Subject closed!!!


Dead End !

Life continues on!


However, as moments became minutes , and minutes hours, and hours days... those words "But,Bridget she needs a home." Reverberated! Resounded! Resonated!!

Internal arguing ensued!

I prayed! Because ... are you ready for some ugly to show?? I didn't want to even consider adoption... AGAIN! Selfish! I know! True just the same.


I then turned to His Word. James 1:22... But prove yourselves DOERS of this world not merely hearers who delude themselves. skip down to vs 25 ..." an effectual DOER will be blessed by what he DOES." vs 27 ..." in the sight of our God, pure and undefiled religion... take care of the orphans & the widows in their distress

distress |disˈtres|
suffering caused by lack of money or the basic necessities of life : the poor were helped in their distress

Continue on to James chapter 2 ... vs 15~17 Suppose you see a brother or sister who needs food or clothing (perhaps even GLASSES & a home)and you say, "Well, good-bye and God bless you; stay warm and eat well"--but then you don't give that person any food or clothing. What good does that do?So you see, it isn't enough just to have faith. Faith that doesn't show itself by good deeds is no faith at all--it is dead and useless.


Pro 24:12Don't try to avoid responsibility by saying you didn't know about it. For God knows all hearts, and he sees you. He keeps watch over your soul, and he knows you knew! And he will judge all people according to what they have done.

Mark and I have texted and not yet spoken in person... I think we are both SCARED!!

I know I am !!! I also know THE I Am !! And He WILL give wisdom! Direction!

" She needs a Home"

"She needs a home"

"She needs a home."

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

I Just Need a Sandbox!!!




Sunday was a day !!

My family & I went to church ( I really don't even like that term"went to church"... aren't we The Church? ... another topic for another day perhaps!)

So, at church God had plans to not only meet me there BUT He had in mind a lesson (or two) that I needed to learn, relearn AND implement.

My heart hurt for someone VERY close to me! I was in full on PROTECT mode! (Read: bulldog with lipstick!) I felt my loved one was mistreated! Dealt with MOST unfairly. In fact, I think that BECAUSE it was a "church setting" the affront stung even more.

I wanted an explanation!

I wanted clarification!

I WANTED IT TO HAVE NOT OCCURED!

During the main assembly I did all I could to sit! I could not sing. I felt to do so would totally NOT honor God. Add to the fact that when I hear singing and I am at all "tender" of heart, I cry!!! So that is what I did! CRY! ALOT!

Afterward we , came home, instead of our usual lunching with friends.

My darling Hubby and I had some HARD heart-to-heart talks! Voices raised! MORE tears shed!

I felt ALONE! My husband & I could NOT agree! I am used to that! BUT, I wanted...no NEEDED to have him understand me,my heart. I didn't care if we disagreed, I just wanted to be understood! I wanted "my side" of things validated.

Fast forward about two hours...

Hubby & I talked ... I ask to be held, supported. I reiterated that he did NOT have to agree with, just hold me. Support me! (THAT is hard for me to do... to be so vulnerable...YES! even in front of my husband.)

Tears still came but now they were cleansing. I prayed. I quieted myself.

I felt The Spirit bringing Scripture to mind. Such as ... " don't grumble against each other, brothers,or you will be judged..." James 5:7

Also, "say only what will edify or uplift the one who hears" paraphrased

Then, I recalled when Jesus was accused. He was silent.

When He was asked what should be done with/about the woman "caught" in adultery ...

He squatted and wrote in the sand!

Whoa! and WOE! I GOT IT!!!!!!!!

I needed to do NOTHING!!

I needed to say NOTHING!

I needed to defend NOTHING!

So, you can find me... in MY sandbox!

Next time you have an urge to "SAY" ............ come join me !!!

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Time keeps on ticking, ticking, ticking into the future...

Time keeps on ticking, ticking, ticking into the future...




So, it is already the middle, of the first month, of 2009...I wonder what this year holds in store?

  • Birthdays
  • Drama
  • Hurt
  • Sickness
  • Friends
  • The unexpected
  • The expected
  • Misunderstandings
  • Joy
  • Sadness
  • Housework
  • Car pool
  • Ball practice
  • WORSHIP (personal corporate)
  • Learning
  • Hope
  • Birthdays
  • Frustration
  • Planning
  • Babes from far away lands join their forever families
  • Winter
  • Spring
  • Summer
  • Fall
  • Visits
  • Pain
  • Birth
  • Death
  • Fear
  • Abundance
  • Grief
  • Plenty
  • Lack
  • Flat tires
  • Nice cashiers
  • Desperate moments
  • Smiles
  • Phone calls, texts,pictures
  • Apologies
  • Sunsets
  • Autumn leaves
  • Singing
  • Giggling
  • Music
  • Cookouts
  • Give KUDOs
  • Appointments
  • Workouts
  • Bible study
  • Eating..YUM!
  • Reunions
  • Vacation
  • Graduations
  • Read a GREAT book
  • Telling a secret
  • KEEPING a secret
  • Help a friend
  • Be helped by a friend
  • Give spare change to a (Santa) bell ringer
  • Meet a new acquaintance / a new friend
  • Promotions
  • Demotions
  • Move / Relocate
  • Tears
  • Belly laughs
  • gut wrenching sobs
  • Learn a new word / phrase /language
  • Break a "bad" habit
  • Smell the ocean
  • Donate to Goodwill
  • Watch the clouds
  • Hear birds sing
  • Feel the wind on your face
  • Receive criticism
  • Watch flowers bloom
  • Ride a roller coaster
  • Be NICE to a stranger
  • Be nice to FAMILY
  • Go to gym (regularly)
  • Call grown up children
  • WAIT for calls from grown up children
  • Celebrate milestones
  • Enjoy eating with family & friends
  • Donate to or sponsor an orphan
  • Get a pedicure
  • Sing ...out LOUD
  • Dream

Thursday, April 27, 2006

Bridgets Babblings

Hopefully I can catch up with all my BLOGGING friends and stop being a "lurker!"
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Wife to Mark for 24 years! Mom to 5 AMAZING children...GiGi to Delaney! I LOVE to laugh! REAL friends! The smell of coffe (not the taste). DIET COKE!! Learning a new word! The beach! Music! The sound of my girls giggling! Watching my guys play football! Praying for & with dear friends!